Its erm. Exactly 2 hours to the finals. YAY. ohh dear.. My stomachs in knots. Can't wait for her to lose. but it'll be SAD. haha.. (:Last night, or rather the morning, I was up till sunrise thinking what would things be like now if I had taken part in idol. And that fateful night when dad and I had that huge fight. Its so unfair. I deserve that chance to know how good I am, or how bad, for that matter. I deserve a shot at what I like to do most. Fuck it dad, I was in the choir for like. 6 years. What do you think!?

uggh.. Such shit. And then when I thought about it that day too, I would have joined campus if I was given the chance. If I knew it was actually taking place, I don't even mind going on the second last paper of Os.. And contrary to popular belief, im not thinking bout this now just cos she's in the competition. It's more of, the campus is a school thing, and idol is, nationwide. Oh what the heck, there were many foreigners too. So I would have stood a better chance right?

dammit. Just hate regretting.. And last night, I pondered on what life would be like now.