i went from two to none. oh well, i guess it definitely uncomplicates my life. just that this wasn't what i expected as a turn-out... disappointments do happen.

i just want things to get back to normal, and if trying then still doesn't work, i'm ready to give up.

i'm feeling quite stupid actually. cos i do miss him. or i dont know if its the phonecalls from any certain someone i miss. maybe i miss being attached. how ironic. and it was only days ago that i felt detached from the status.

the confrontation today i thought was in short, futile, immature and totally moronic. but i guess some things just can't be laid off like that, and he might have been seeking his own closure to this. whatever it is, im glad things are working out. i had actually thought about staying friends with him, but its obvious. today's behaviour was a major turn-off. boo:(
think the worse is over... i'm really glad kannan didn't blow up or lose his temper, but i thought don could have handled it better. and definitely no racist comments. that was totally unneccessary. hes mixed anyway.


thanks carmen and joyce esp. you guys have been there for me throughout. all i can say is, i'm real grateful for friends like these. (:
ck, kc and even kok guan coming up to me to ask if im okay.. kok guan is like, the sweetest mr nice guy. haha, he goes around making people smile. it was totally unexpected, of all people. and he doesnt use the usual cliches. and he does have a point. we should look on the bright side of life(: i almost forgot how to do that really.


think i'm getting back into the groove of school. projs, assignments etc. mosaic submisson cum mini presentation + ob presentation tomz.. big day boyyy. and ima so proud of myself. few hours and my mask looks pretty pretty enough to eat. hope its good enough for hernie.


valentines day is coming. i dont even know if she'll hold true to her word.

you drive away, from my car crash of a heart